Unfriended! And That’s All Right By Me

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Wednesday, 29 September, 2010

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A friend of mine recently told me that he had been ‘unfriended’ on Facebook by someone he once cared for. While this gesture saddened him, he knew that it was the final goodbye in a relationship that had run its course. I told him that he had to honor this person’s choice and accept that they had gone as far as they could together. He would find new friends. And it made me think about my own recent ‘unfriended’ experiences.

Two people who were very close to me recently unfriended me for reasons I do not understand but since both incidents happened after I refused to do something for them, I assume that I am no longer their Facebook friend because my decision interferes with the role they want me to play in their life. And I have to admit that it is a role I have played for many years, being their friend, rescuer, supporter, the shoulder they cry on when they need one and the person they turn to when they have an emotional or financial problem.

But when they weren’t in need I was the invisible person in their life, an optional accessory they could use at will. And when I turned down the most recent opportunity to offer help and support, they let me know that my presence was no longer required. And that’s all right by me.

Facebook is the new way in which we relate to people and it has become the new measure of social popularity. If we have lots of friends (disregard the fact that we may not know most of them) we are considered popular. Fewer friends means we aren’t ‘with it’. But these anonymous friendships also offer the opportunity to end a friendship with the click of the ‘unlike’ button. Presto, we are no longer friends. No muss, no fuss, no drama or uncomfortable conversations.

If this is someone we like it can be upsetting. But we can offer our gratitude to those people who take the ‘unfriend’ step because they are letting us know that we no longer have to fulfill our role in their life. We are not socially undesirable to everyone, just to them. Is this an insult? I consider it a blessing. The people who decide they no longer want us in their life do so because (as was in my case), we are no longer useful to them. While that may sound harsh, it is true. When we do not fulfill specific roles for them, they can’t get what they want from us on an energetic level. So we are free and they can find someone else who will meet those needs.

What if everyone you support, befriend, are an emotional or financial anchor for and rescuer of suddenly told you they no longer wanted you in their life? Would you be happy or sad?

Chances are you would be relieved, maybe a little bit happy and perhaps even a little sad because after all you have done for them that they can so easily write you out of their life is upsetting. But there is an upside.

In my case, I am glad to be relieved of my self imposed role in their lives. So I am grateful to those who unfriended me because I was feeling very used and unappreciated. My time and energy investments were enormous and I never received anything in return. In fact, it is perfectly all right that I no longer feel obligated to be the giver in these relationships because that frees me on so many levels and allows me to create new friendships that are more energetically balanced and fulfilling.

Now being relieved and somewhat happy about this is a new paradigm for me. There was a time when I wanted to be part of their life and to have their approval. And I made many personal sacrifices to do that. But I just don’t want to do that any more because I have cleared those connections, released that karma and I want all of my relationships to reflect my level of spiritual growth and the healing and transformation work that I have done.

Do you have friends (and family) who take from you without giving you anything in return? Are there people in your life who treat you like an optional accessory — you’re there when they need you and you are not when they don’t? Who meets your needs and really cares that they are fulfilled? Who insists that you meet their needs, no matter what is convenient, right or best for you?

What if you ‘unfriended’ them? Would you be relieved, sad, happy or feel guilty?

In September’s first newsletter I wrote that this was a time for us to get clear on what we wanted in our life and that includes the people we will interact with as well as how we want others to treat us.

Make a list of the people who love, honor and respect you. Then make a second list of those who take advantage of you, are needy, demanding and who take but never give you anything in return. Which list do you want to keep as your friends? Focus on releasing the relationships that do not serve you and then let them find their way to the door. They will be replaced by people who can be your true friends.

Stay calm, focused, detached and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.

As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time (Mercury is finally out of retrograde, so it’s time to move forward now), remember to:

Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.
Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.

Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity’s amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.

Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times,
Jennifer Hoffman

The Guilt/Shame Cycle

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Monday, 27 September, 2010

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Emotions like guilt and shame do not exist in a vacuum. They are part of a long process of actions involving people and situations that have created these emotions. All we remember is the end of this process, how terrible we feel and these have been repeated often enough to prevent us from moving forward as soon as we sense a hint of them. But if we stop the cycle when it starts, release the fear that we have around feeling guilt or being shamed, they move into the background of our responses and go back into the past, where they began.

Guilt is one way that we are manipulated by others. Parents often use guilt to control their children, believing that by showing them the consequences their behavior has on others that they will learn to be considerate and compassionate. It’s a backwards way of saying that we should be aware of our connections. But then we avoid acting by trying to minimize the guilt we will feel when we put our needs and desires over those of others and we lose our perspective about what is important to us.

Shame is such a destructive form of manipulation because it takes guilt one step further. If we disregard the guilt ploy then we get moved into shame. Now we are a bad person, inconsiderate, selfish, or self serving by ignoring others’ needs. Our desires become a source of shaming by those who feel their needs are more important. Within the guilt/shame cycle, if we can overcome guilt and proudly declare our intention to serve our needs, we are attacked at our core and our being. Shame moves blame from what we are doing to who we are. Few of us can withstand this type of attack, so we absorb the shame and it becomes part of our belief system.

When we have learned these principles well, we use the guilt/shame cycle on ourselves. After a few passes with it, we do not need someone to guilt and shame us, we know what to do. So when we put our desires forward, we look at what others want or expect of us and decide whether the guilt is worth the effort. If we decide it is, then risk shame if we make a choice whose outcome ripples energetically around us, as it will. Now comes the hard part, can we step out of this cycle, see the interplay of these energies and use our heart to ask “what do I want’ instead assessing each choice through what it will cost us in terms of our guilt and shame?

The Worst that can Happen

Guilt and shame take us on internal journeys of fear, where they convince us that whatever they represent is the worst thing that can happen. Like all fearful things, they are the debris of the past, so they have no real power other than that which we give them. But as with all things that reside in our imagination and harness the power of our mind and thinking, guilt and shame are powerful creators of our reality. They can also block us at every turn until we move beyond the belief that their imaginings are the worst that can happen because there is something worse than our guilt and shame.

How can anything be worse than shame and guilt? The paralysis that they create within us which prevents us from taking any action whose outcome they could be connected to. For guilt, these are outcomes that risk our feeling guilty about our actions or being made to feel guilty by someone else. Remember that guilt is about manipulation, so if we want to do something that benefits us, the fear of having someone telling us that we are bad or wrong, because they would have preferred we make the effort, spend the time or use the energy on their behalf.

Shame connects to our fear of abandonment, rejection and ultimately, death. Our fear of being shamed has long roots in our primal fear of being left alone, without support, and dying. This could be physical death but it can also be emotional death, where we have no one to love or care for us. In today’s world this fear can seem silly but we’re dealing on the level of the mind, past lifetimes and cellular memory. So from that perspective these fears are very real and will lead us to do anything to avoid shame and its potentially disastrous results.

What’s the worst that can happen to you? Probably nothing as serious or as terrible as you think. Are you going to allow that fear to paralyze you? So often what keeps us stuck is the fear of the worst that arises from our guilt and shame. Guilt and shame are a denial of your divinity. Let these fears rise to the surface, make peace with them and then confidently move forward on your path, knowing that from your point of truth everything is possible and when you stand in that truth, the worst never happens.

I’m Your Past Are You Going My Way?

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Wednesday, 22 September, 2010

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I know I just sent out an Ascension Insight message yesterday but was guided to send this one today because what I experienced in the last 48 hours is part of the energy shift that we are experiencing this week with the Equinox today and the Full Moon on September 23. It is an energy boomerang that will show us what happens when we think consider going back to the past. So, here we go, it’s an interesting, dramatic story.

A few years ago I was involved with someone I will call David. From our first meeting, which happened ‘by accident’ (even though we know there are no accidents), I knew that there was something very important about this relationship. After our first dinner date I felt that something was odd about him but I was willing to see what unfolded. And I had insight into a very important past life that I had with him that I needed to heal. But in the weeks that followed the drama, intensity and often sheer ridiculousness of his behavior let me know that this was not the right person for me. So I ended the relationship.

Then a few days ago I was contacted by David and he asked whether we could be friends. I was a little hesitant given our past history and told him I would have to think about it. So I asked for guidance and to be shown whether this was the right move for me. Well, a few hours after I asked that question I got my answer in the form of contact from someone who wanted to partner with me on a project. Within hours, I had received over twenty emails about the project, changing dates, asking for more participating from me, questioning me about things that were not even related to the project and when I asked him to step writing to me because I felt it wasn’t a good fit and I was no longer interested (because it was getting to be too dramatic and too much work), the attacks got personal.

After a while I stopped reading his emails because they were just mean and spiteful. And then I remembered my guidance request and saw the similarities between this man and David. In fact, they were the same personality. How did I open that can of worms? By opening myself up to David energetically, I went back to the energetic imprint that was present in our relationship. And I attracted someone with that imprint. Even though I had stepped out of it by ending the relationship, David’s contact was an invitation to go back. And when I asked for guidance, I was shown the imprint that still existed and attracted a similar energy to show me that nothing about the situation had changed. Opening that door set an energetic boomerang in motion that had brought that imprint right back into my life.
Did I get the message? Absolutely. David will have to walk his path without me.

But the bigger issue here is what happens when we consider going back to the past. Of course we can and it is always a choice we have to make but along with that choice we have to consider what it means to us energetically. When we go back to the past its energy is moved into our present reality. Then we can make an informed choice about whether or not we will move forward.

Why is this coming up now? The Equinox is about balance and a change of season. While we think that only pertains to nature, we are also part of the Earth’s energy. So as we move into a new season we have new opportunities for growth. And part of that process is re-visiting the past and deciding whether any part of it will fit into our current reality.

If we are confident in the new energy paradigms we have created, we will look at the past and let it stay where it belongs (in the past).

If we are not confident and we still need a lesson in letting go, acceptance, or acknowledging our power, we will get a lesson in the energetic paradigm we are about to take on.

Sometimes as we are going through a big transformation we want closure with the past, which sometimes means that we want someone to give us the closure in the form of acknowledging us in some way. This is where we have to put on our mastery hat and remember that closure, like forgiveness, is a gift we give to ourselves. The person who was a challenge in the past will probably be a challenge in the present. Our choice is whether we will are willing to really let go of energies that no longer fit and do not serve our current path, no matter who they are connected to.

And there is another aspect to this shift which has to do with the Full Moon of September 23, which is at 0 degrees of Aries and Libra, which has to do with the self and relationships. Our lessons here are about how we create relationships relative to what we think about ourselves, putting ourselves and our needs first, being powerful in our own lives and letting our power create the energetic paradigms we operate in and attract others through. Are we confident enough to create new paradigms that are not bringing the energies of the past into our current reality? Where do we stand in the areas of self love, self empowerment and our beliefs about what we want and deserve in our life?

0 degrees Aries is the point of new beginnings and to have this astral alignment so close to the equinox is very powerful. And, for you astrology lovers, all of the outer planets (Jupiter, Saturn, Neptune, Uranus and Pluto) are in early or very late degrees of a sign and aspect the Equinox and Full Moon, a very rare occurrence. So we have a lot of support available to us for any changes we want to make.

What new beginnings do you want to create in your life today?

What aspects of the past are you willing to release? If not, then which energies of the past are you willing to live with today?

Use this time to practice acceptance with everyone, give yourself closure and bless your teachers. They play an important role on your path. And take a power inventory-how powerful and confident do you feel when you have to create new paradigms for your life? Do you wish you could go back to the past and change some aspect of it?   If the past is knocking at your door, it has an important message for you. Enjoy these powerful days and use them to create a brilliant new reality.Stay calm, focused, and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.

As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time (Mercury is finally out of retrograde, so it’s time to move forward now), remember to:

Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.

Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.

Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity’s amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.

Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times,

Jennifer Hoffman

What Can We Do Without Power?

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Wednesday, 22 September, 2010

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Last Tuesday night I was in my office writing while music played in the background. It was a peaceful, joyful evening and I feeling very motivated and energized. Then, in a moment, the power went out and I was sitting in the quiet darkness, with my computer monitor as the only light in the house. So I took the candle I keep in my office and walked to the kitchen to get some matches so I could light some candles until the power was restored.

While I know my house well since I live and work here, I was amazed at how slowly I moved in the dark. The candle I was carrying didn’t cast a very big light so I had to take small, careful steps.  Did I remember where I had put the items on the floor in the hall? Was I going to bump into any furniture or walls? As I looked for the matches (I knew exactly where they were when the lights were on) and lit a few candles, my house looked very different, with big dark spaces interspersed with a few patches of light. My friendly, beautiful house suddenly didn’t look so friendly.

I looked outside to see if my neighbors’ power was also out and was surprised to see that only my side of the street was dark. And while the houses behind me were also dark, those across the street from them were lit. So the power outage was random and didn’t affect everyone. Interesting. Others had power but it didn’t do me any good. I could not go to their house and take enough electricity for my lights to come on. I had to wait until the power to my own house was restored.

So I carefully and slowly walked back through the house to my office where I was able to write for another hour and then my computer battery died. Now what was I going to do? I had already eaten dinner and couldn’t watch TV and everything I wanted to do required electricity. So I tried to read but stopped after a few minutes because reading by candlelight was really hard (I’m not sure how Abe Lincoln did it but it didn’t work for me).

Every time I entered a room I automatically reached for the light switch and of course, nothing happened. I could have gotten a flashlight but it was downstairs in my now very dark basement. For a minute, I thought about navigating the stairs with my candle but then I would have to also go through the dark garage and since the spiders are preparing for winter and I have a lot of them this year, that didn’t sound like such a good idea.

Why is it we don’t miss things like power and light until we don’t have them? What can we do without power? Not much because whether we are in the dark or the light, our power is what allows us to continue moving forward. In those moments when we are thrust in the dark, we still have what it takes to move us out of the darkness and into another place. But if we let the darkness move us into a place of powerlessness, then we have disconnected from our power and from our light within.

We wander around in the dark so much of the time, not realizing that we have power within us and we can use it to put ourselves back into the light at any time. Sometimes, indeed very often, we take this power for granted until something happens and we are in the dark. What do we do then? Do we sit in the dark hoping someone will find and rescue us? Do we ask others to share their light with us and hope that it will be enough to light our way? Or do we trust that the lights will be back on soon and let that belief empower us through the darkness?

My busy and peaceful evening was interrupted by the power loss and all of my plans were changed. Without power we suddenly realize how many of our activities are much harder, if not impossible to do. My neighbors had not lost their power, why was mine out? And I couldn’t go to them and ask to borrow their power. But that is something we do all the time when we feel powerless. Depending on others for our power is much like me lighting the small candles throughout my house. They only lit the area around them and were not as effective as having full access to my normal source of power.   Did I doubt that the power would be restored? Absolutely not. That is the power company’s job and they would find a way to restore the power. Do we have the same trust in the Universe, that it is our partner in our power and will help us shed light on our darkness and regain our power? Do we know that our light connection comes from our power and it is not through the light that we have power? Hmmm, something to think about.

The Universe is our partner but it’s our job to stay connected to our power so we can navigate through our lives. This navigation is not about getting by or hoping we can avoid the darkness, it’s about what we believe, think and do with our power and the light we have. What are we manifesting, how are we creating our lives, what are we doing with our light so that when we find ourselves in the darkness we know it is temporary and absolutely believe that the light is just a thought away.

It’s easy to feel sad, complain about and be angry with our lives at times. It’s a normal, human reaction to feel taken advantage of, hurt and victimized by the things that happen to us. These periods are either our brief moments in the dark or they are the long term darkness that we live in. The light is always there for us to choose as we decide how much power we live with, use, and allow into our life. The periods of darkness will come and they can be minimized by focusing on what they have to teach us. Sometimes we need the dark as a time to rest, relax, take a break and slow down. My guides have been after me to go to bed early for weeks. So after spending time in the dark, I went to bed early.

We can learn a lot from the periods in our life in which we find ourselves without power and remember that everything has a purpose of adding to the light. Do we trust that the light will come back on? It always does when we are ready for it and have learned our lesson of powerlessness.

Whenever you find yourself in that place where the light seems to be missing, where you feel powerless and alone, use it to reflect, consider and make a conscious connection to the light. Then the next time you are in the dark, when you are not feeling very powerful or confident, you will know that the light is not far away and it will return when you remember that it is always within you as your silent and powerful partner on your journey.

Stay calm, focused, and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time (Mercury is finally out of retrograde, so it’s time to move forward now), remember to:

Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.

Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.

Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity’s amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.

Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times,

Jennifer Hoffman

Full Moon Equinox, September 2010

a message from Karen Murphy

Tuesday, 21 September, 2010

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The onslaught of energies assaulting the planet that began with the Solstice and successive eclipses in June, and have continued with a particularly strong Mercury retrograde and the proximity of a retrograde Jupiter, moves ahead once again this week with a double-whammy of the Full Moon Equinox on September 23 (or, the evening of September 22 for those in North America). If ever you have been doubting that your life is in flux and that the only reasonable course through such commotion is to breathe and ride with it, now is your chance to embrace this philosophy.

Let’s discuss these events separately and then together.

The full moon occurs regularly and is a figure on a regular basis in terms of providing an opening toward growth or movement. Use this time to your advantage to focus on what you are creating. What messages are present for you in the perceived movement (or lack of movement) in your life? Take care with your thoughts about creating your life and your story – if you focus only on the “good,” you rob yourself of the power of your shadow side. In meditation, embrace all that you are creating and welcome it to your side. Breathe for a while with what you have created, and then seek to release what no longer serves you.

The Equinox, especially this one, is even more powerful. It symbolizes the crossing over from life to death, and for balance, in the Southern Hemisphere it symbolizes the crossing from death back to life again, or rebirth. With this energy, then, is great power, one that can bring you in closer connection with your cellular beginnings. Use this time to think about your life on a grander scale — bring into your awareness all the what-ifs and might-have-beens; they are a part of you as and such deserve to be honored and considered. Now is the time to perform your own soul retrieval, bringing those past parts of yourself, the lives created by the choice points in your past that are not a part of the You that you know yourself to be today, into your conscious being.

Together, then, this Full Moon Equinox is a time to bring into balance and awareness the totality of You. It is a powerfully healing time, and offers a space through which to move into a new chapter in your life.

On a personal level

This is perhaps the most noticeable manifestation of these energies. Along with the inner expansion of the Jupiter retrograde, and in preparation for an upcoming Venus retrograde, the majority of you will find yourself re-examining past patterns and relationships. We have said before that the primary method of experience physical plane experience is through interacting with others, and so relationships are an important part of each individual’s experience. In this time, you’ll find yourself realizing new insights about old issues that have felt stuck to you in the past. Use this time to meditate on your common triggering reactions and responses. Embrace them and bring them to you without judgment, and then stay with the feelings that arise. After all, they are just feelings! In time, with sitting with these reactive patterns, you’ll be able to release them. For the next several days, try to create some space within which to meditate and to allow your sense of these patterns to come into your consciousness. If you like, follow the threads that lead from you to the others in your life with whom you have created these patterns and practice Tonglen, breathing in awareness and understanding, and breathing out love and compassion.

On a relationship level

Because of all the intense inner work that most people are experiencing, relationships will be changing as well. Now is the time to pay attention to what you have been creating and the story you have been telling, perhaps for years now, about the people you have known. Do you still wish to hold onto that story? You may use this energy to make a new story if you like. Mentally hold hands with the person with whom you’d like to create a new story, and tell them that you are now choosing differently. The in-real-life reactions of people to the inner changes you are making will vary, but understand that it is the people closest to us who have the hardest time seeing change in us. Allow time and space for change to develop.

On a community level

To balance the inner work, people are feeling more intensely a need now to connect with others. This has been occurring overall on a global level for some time, but the shift of seasons, from light to dark, is an important marker for most people that creates a need for change. Summer is an outward, expanding time, while Winter is an inward, contracting time. You’ll likely be feeling a need to ground yourself within the activities of others at this time (for those in the Southern Hemisphere, you’re also feeling a pull toward community but in an expansive, action-oriented way) in ways that bring a sense of fellowship and sameness. Examples of this are desires to worship with others, to create and eat food with others, and to interact in a meaningful way with deep discussions. This is a good time to join a book or film discussion group or to seek a new way to connect with others who share your beliefs and values. Connecting through shared experience becomes important now.

On a global level

Worldwide, balance is created among the hemispheres which moves the global collective community light-years into the What Comes Next. Because of the amount and intensity of the inner work being done on a personal level, waves of global change will begin to emanate after this Full Moon Equinox. This has an effect on many levels: expect through mid-October some repercussions that may look like earthquake activity (Northern Pacific Rim), large bank failure, political scandal eruption, and other events that “rock the boat” for some time to come.

Full Moon Equinox Meditation

To assist you with moving effortlessly into the energies of this time, we offer this meditation. Try to practice it at least twice over the coming three days, paying especial attention to when you need to create this connection on the Equinox itself.

Close your eyes and focus on the breath. Feel how your body, your cells, expand along with the rise and fall of your chest, your shoulders, your abdomen. Feel how this breath move along tiny passageways into every cell in your body, infusing you with the energy of this moment. It is this moment – right now – in which you are creating what happens next. In this breath, you plant the seeds of your next week, month, year, and decade. In this breath, you infuse your being with all your hopes, dreams, and expectations, and in this breath you embrace also the stories and dreams of all those who share breath on this planet with you. Breathe now and breathe in those stories, allowing them to mix with your own. Breathe out again and send your hopes out into the universe to be co-created by all those who share breath on this planet with you. Rest now in the immense possibility that you have created with one breath. Breathe that knowledge – knowledge of your innate power to create – into every cell, down to your toes and beyond back down into the Earth again. Feel the door that you just opened, and choose to walk through it into your next breath.

Ass Over Teacup – Lauren C. Gorgo

Lauren C. Gorgo,  September 20, 2010

ThinkWithYourHeart.net

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So this article was supposed to be the second part to “Stepping into the Flow” that I posted earlier this week…but I should have known better. There is no such thing as a “linear” order to events any more, and though I naively thought that I could force my will against divine will, the universe took a completely different turn just to show me who’s boss.

This energetic turn, while short and intense, was so unexpected and out of the blue, that I literally ended up back in fetal position wondering how to feed myself, let alone how to piece together the rest of that expired energy update.

If you felt like this past week coming off of Mercury retrograde has been unusually challenging… to the point that you thought you were back at the beginning of this heinous journey…you were not alone.  I was officially ass. over. teacup.  Completely unplugged.

Just as we were beginning to S L O W L Y make forward moving strides toward our new lives, we were collectively capsized by a white squall of sudden self-doubt while plunging even deeper into the seas of uncertainty. Some huge waves of incapability came crashing on our shores that may have caused you to question really BIG things on even deeper levels…questions like: Is this thing REALLY gonna happen?… or maybe even questions about your long-held creations, like: do I REALLY want to be doing this?…OR…Is this REALLY what I want? …or Can I REALLY do this?

Not only have we just been capsized by these sobering questions and purgings of doubt, but we are hanging on to the bottom of a boat that is rapidly taking us over the edge of a canyon wall that we can’t. yet. see.  Sweet Jesus.

Naturally, these periods of clearing & integration can create a serious dip in confidence.   It’s like, the further we ground into our lives and bodies, the more sober we become and the less plausible this all seems. (yikes) But these feelings only exist while we are knee-deep in clearing…once we make it thru to the other side of an integration period and can exhale, we get it…but in the meantime its like waking up from a long dream and wondering how we got here…but more importantly, how and when we will get the hell OUT of here.

These frustrations of being held back have been r e a l l y intensifying this past week…boiling within us like a geyser ready to burst through the earth and launch us into the stratosphere thru the release of over a decade of mounting pressure. These building emotions (anxiety/omg-the-STRESS/rage/disappointment/discontentment/etc) that have been coming to a head are definitely aiding us in moving forward, and thank heavens for that because we literally can’t see a foot in front of our faces!

From where we stand…and from the compression of time collapsing in on itself…there is no such thing as predicting the future anymore, so we are all riding the wild waves of the present moment with such focus (and with a “please-god-let-me-survive-this” death grip) that the energies shift too quickly now to pretend we know anything.

And we really don’t know anything…we have NO IDEA what’s actually in store for us (which is part of the excitement!) other than a barely perceptible feeling of “we are so close”…

But to what?

And that’s what this week has been all about:

1) releasing more preconceived notions of what will be, so we can create what is with total freedom…
2) purging the deeply embedded fears that block us from our power (which accounts for those odd solar plexus/abdomen rumblings & pains), and…
3) witnessing the building momentum (frustration/stress) within that is bringing us to a sort of “live free or die” mentality…

…and all of this in preparation for stepping out and becoming visible to the world again.

This week was designed to shake up our foundations for the purposes of loosening any lingering feelings of incapability (do I really have what it takes?) so we can move forward into the unknown with confidence as we step onto a bigger life platform without knowing any of “the how’s”.

The Pleiadian High Council mentions that the greater purpose of this week was to “step further into our divine template as we begin to honor the physical transition from human to divine human.” In fact, they say that this whole week has been an extreme balancing act between these two realities (separation/reconnection), and one that we are now learning to master the art of.

Unplugged

Because change is  S L O W L Y  beginning to show up in our external lives, so much needs to be accomplished to restructure and align our outside world to match our new internal processing. This made the recent disconnect even more daunting as we were thrown back into our old separated selves again…unplugged from our power source while in the middle of some BIG life changes (and we are still at the tail end of some intense cellular transmutation).

For many, this new platform means… or will mean…moving to a new geographic location (& if u are not moving, you may have just noticed that EVERY ROOM in your house is now the wrong color or that you suddenly hate your refrigerator), ending or beginning major relationships/careers/businesses, starting new projects/partnerships and finding a new or revised physical outlet for the expanded expression of the YOUniversal you. With regard to these changes, the PHC says…”stabilize & brace yourself for change.” Luckily, we’re wise enuf now to know what this really means: “settle into a box of donuts and marathon run of Jersey Shore on TiVo.” Yeah, I said that.

These disconnection periods, while shorter now than ever before, feel so extreme because we are so close to being fully immersed in the oneness, that the stark comparison of separation is becoming, vibrationally speaking, too much to bear.

But as I mentioned in the last two updates, we are still ebbing and flowing, finding our feet and stabilizing in the new which means that one day we are completely amped up and running insane amounts of energy…(you know those days. you suddenly feel like a superhero with amnesia, thinking you can do ANYthing while forgetting the last 10 years of consciousness climbing as you run in circles, or into walls, because you are completely unable to ground, focus or sleep) …and the next we are down for the count, sleeping (integrating) for hours on end like we just came off of a wicked coke bender.

These fluctuations are not only physically taxing, they also create disparate emotional extremes between…”ANYTHING & NOthing is possible.” Holy mania batman.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch… we finally made it through the dimensional doorway of the grand crosses of the summer months (winter for the southern hemisphere)…the proverbial eye of the needle…and this month we are settling into our new grooves, securing our foundations, and beginning to physically restructure our external lives as we step into the universal flow of perfect timing. We may still pop back through the door now and again (like we did all this week) to revisit the old (or just to give ourselves a swell swoop in the arse), but the visits will be shorter and shorter until not at all.

New Wave of Light

The PHC also wants us to know that despite how awful we can feel at any given moment, that they are, in fact, “regulating the amount of light that each of us willfully inhabits” (sheesh…can u imagine what it would be like if they weren’t???) and that there is coming a new wave of energy that will take us beyond the confines of time and space. (I think they may be referring to the equinox (9/22 (EDT) or the 10:10…or both…but as usual, I am only given enough information to get us through the here and now.  Besides, what does it really matter at this point…they all hurt.)

Speaking of pain, I am also hearing that altho we will be moving forward with less resistance beginning this week, I am getting a heads up that we may also be momentarily returning to that horrid state of separation again (presumably during one or both of these next two downloads?)…feeling the distance between our higher & lower self…but that this is only a temporary disconnect that will apparently complete the rewiring of our pituitary/pineal gland. (hence all the headaches, sneezing, vertigo, ear pain, body temp irregularities (chills/sweating), deep sleeps/insomnia, burning/watery eyes, and sinus ick)

(Also worth mentioning…during this very sensitive time of pituitary/pineal activation (known to the outside world as “allergy season”), it is important to steer clear of any/all environmental toxins, noxious fumes (like diesel exhaust for example), fragrances with chemicals…especially petroleum based… anything that is not a natural, that you are sensitive to, or could cause interference in the opening of your third eye)

The PHC say that the pituitary and pineal are finally signing prenups and preparing to merge in sacred union…aka the sacred marriage of the male and female energies within us & the recipe/ingredients for transfiguration)  Apparently, from this merging forward “all will be regarded as “new territory” and the old world will seem to separated by a demarcation point. This demarcation point represents the completion of the merging process and from this point onward, our conscious memory will seem split before and after ascension.”

(So curiously people…is this like BC/AD? I am pretty intrigued by that notion, and can’t help but draw the correlation.  BA/AA??? Would love your feedback on that idea…)

They say that the reason this is being brought to our awareness is to assist us (especially the more irreverent of us) to realize that this is a ginormous shift taking place and that the experiences we tout as nonessential, are indeed of great importance…and that the longer we have consciously been on this path and worked with these energies, the more profound the external proof of our internal shift will be.

Well, I don’t think any of us going thru this process can doubt the depth of the transformation…regardless of what we think or be-lie-ve, our bodies don’t lie.

And that, I suppose, is the comedy in collective perspective : ))

Happy Equinox!
Lauren

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The September Equinox

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Monday, 6 September, 2010  (posted 20 September, 2010)

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This month marks the autumnal equinox, which happens on September 22, a time when we once again have an opportunity to balance the energies in and around us. Right after the equinox is a full moon at the Aries point, which is 0 degrees of Aries. This is a powerful transformational force that will give strength to whatever intention you set for yourself. Use the period leading up to it, beginning now, to pay attention to what is coming up in your life to be balanced and then do the inner work that is revealed to you. This is a wonderful opportunity for completion if we are willing.

I have noticed in recent readings that the issue of energetic balance is very strong. What do we need to do to be balanced, how do we stay balanced and what throws us off balance are questions that arise with clients. While we all have the intention for balance, it is interesting how easily we allow others to throw us off balance. An unkind word, a deliberate action or a perceived slight are often enough to throw our good intentions to be powerful out the window and we are off balance, wondering what happened and why these people hate us.

With balance comes a reminder that others do things in spite of us, not always to us, and for their own reasons. Jealousy is an emotion that we never attribute to others often enough, when assessing their actions. Why should we since we don’t always think we’re that special, why would someone be jealous of us. But often their actions or words are inspired by their jealousy or envy. Will you allow it to throw you off balance? It’s up to you.

Make a commitment this month to gain balance in your life, where the energy that flows out of you is matched by what you receive. Where the people in your life give to you from their heart and treat you with love, respect and consideration. Set your intention for and insist on being with like-minded people who appreciate you for who you are and release those who do not. Then allow yourself to know what it means to feel the peace, joy and clarity that comes with being in balance with your own energy and claim the miracles that are yours for the asking.

Letter from Heaven

I got this heart warming story in my mailbox, and thought to share with you…

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This is one of the kindest things you may see.  It is not known who
replied, but there is a beautiful soul working in the dead letter
office of the  US postal service.

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after
she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and
talking about how much she missed Abbey.  She asked if
we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to
heaven, God would recognize her.  I told her that I thought
we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,
Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is
with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you
let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to
swim I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You
will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.

Love, Meredith

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey
and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put
our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several
stamps on the front of the envelope because she said
it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the
way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the
letter box at the post office.

A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter
yet.  I told her that I thought He had. Yesterday, there
was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch
addressed, ‘To Meredith’ in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith
opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called,
‘When a Pet Dies.’

Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had
written to God in its opened envelope On the opposite
page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:

Dear Meredith,

Abbey arrived safely in heaven. Having the picture was a
big help. I recognized Abbey right away.

Abbey isn’t sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like
it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog.

Since we don’t need our bodies in heaven, I don’t have any
pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to
you in this little book for you to keep and have something
to remember Abbey by.

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother
for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful
mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you
very much. By the way, I’m easy to find, I am wherever there is love.

Love,
God

Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps you Glowing ,
But Only Friends Keep You Going!

Even the Inchworm Eventually Arrives at its Destination

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Wednesday, 15 September, 2010

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I was sitting on my deck enjoying the sunshine when I saw a little inchworm moving up the side of my house. It moved slowly, drawing its body up and forward, one tiny step at a time. It did not stop or falter, did not look around, it just kept moving slowly, ignoring everything but the side of the house and its destination. Now my house is tall and I am not sure what the inchworm was going to do when it got to the roof but it kept moving. I watched it for over fifteen minutes as it continued on its path, never stopping until it finally reached the roof and crept out of sight.

As I watched it move along I was reminded of my own journey and how slowly it seems to move at times, how little progress I feel I am making and yet, in retrospect, I see how far I have come. These last five years have been a particularly difficult but the last ten have been a series of challenges that seemed to never end. The roller coaster ride through losing jobs, not having any money, being homeless, abandonment by friends and family, betrayals, disappointments and doors slammed shut forever has not been fun. But looking back (isn’t hindsight wonderful) I can see how everything fits together to put me where I am at this moment-confident, in full control of my power, with clarity and a vision for my life that is truly mine and not dependent on anyone or anything.

I know there are things in my life that have changed forever, people I will never connect with again, relationships that are forever altered because I have changed (and that is OK), things I will never do again and fears that I never have to experience (unless I choose to). These are the signs that I have changed and the person I need to be for those relationships to exist is no longer there. Like the inchworm I have been moving forward on my path one little step at a time. When I stop to see how far I have yet to go the destination seems too far away. But when I look at how far I have come, I realize that it is not about the destination, what is important is whatever is happening in this moment. The question is, what do I do next?

A friend called this weekend to ask my advice about a job situation. He wants to move away from where he is (isn’t that a familiar situation) and has several job opportunities that he really needs to consider in the short term as he needs the money. But he is reluctant to start something if he has to quit too soon because another situation that allows him to move away comes up. The answer he received was very clear – if he is sitting at a table full of food and he’s hungry, is he going to wait for another table to open up to begin eating?

This is where living in the present moment gets tricky. We want to be in integrity with ourselves and others but we need to take care of our needs right now. How is the Universe responding to what you need and what are you doing about it? Projecting the potential future and what might happen only serves to add to our doubt and confusion. With all of the movement we’re experiencing, the collapse of linear time, the surprises around every corner, what once took years to complete can happen in five minutes or less. We can imagine what the future might be like but what actually happens can be totally different.

Sometimes our willingness to respond to a situation that is offered to us now, even if taking it does not always make sense, may lead to the opening we are looking for. At question is not our integrity, it is our trust. Are we serving ourselves and our needs or the needs and expectations of others? Are we projecting our fears into the process and imagining the worst when what might happen is something totally different?I asked my friend to consider that his real concern was about his reputation and what he thought of people who were always looking for the best deal for themselves and if he could consider, as an outcome, that if he had the opportunity to leave, that the path which opened would also include one that closed the door to his job. He was assuming a responsibility that wasn’t his to assume and limiting himself in the process. We have to leave room for miracles and things often have a way of working out for the best for all concerned.

So as we are all inching along on this path we call ascension, if we look back on the path we have taken, let’s do it with the intention to celebrate how far we have come. And if we look ahead to how far we have yet to go, let’s do so with the intention to be aware what is happening in the present moment, because it is truly all we can be know and to leave a little space in our thoughts for the miracles that bless us on each step of the way. The next step will be revealed at the right time. We can take what is offered at this moment and know that when it’s time for something else to occur, everything will be taken care of in the best way possible, so that everyone’s needs are met, including ours.

I don’t know what happened to the little inchworm, I imagine it kept on going to wherever inchworms go.

How far have you come and where are you in this moment? You may not realize how much more confident, fearless, powerful and aware you are until you take the time to look at how far you have come. So give yourself the gift of appreciation for what you have achieved on your journey. You have earned it and you deserve it.Stay calm, focused, and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.

As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time (Mercury is finally out of retrograde, so it’s time to move forward now), remember to:

Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.

Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.

Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity’s amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.

Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times,

Jennifer Hoffman

Guilt and Shame

a message from Jennifer Hoffman

Wednesday, 15 September, 2010

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The more the energy shifts open our hearts to the divinity of who we are, the more we become aware of the darker, denser energies we carry. And we see the connections those energies have to our limitations, unhappiness and frustration. Some of these are easy to let go of because we can detach from the experiences that come with them. Learning to not take others’ behavior personally makes it easier to release betrayal and disappointment.

We can even let go of abandonment issues when we understand that others love and give to us from their own limited resources. But these emotions have a residue of guilt and shame that is much harder to process and remains with us, like a stain on our heart, until we are able to work through their personal aspects. Guilt and shame are two of the most challenging emotions because they are difficult to understand and are intertwined in our physical, emotional and spiritual history.

We carry guilt over things that we have or have not done or said, actions we have not taken or opportunities we let slip by. When our life spirals out of control our fear is strong but it is overshadowed by the guilt we feel at having let things get to this point. We punish ourselves through our guilt because we believe we could have done better and prevented this from happening. Add to that the feelings of having let ourselves and perhaps others down, no wonder we get depressed and are unable to make any changes.

Those of us who suffered through the teachings of the catholic church were fed a steady diet of guilt that included our path of eternal damnation because we are unworthy of direct communication with God. Our parents may have used guilt to get us to clean our dinner plate (there are starving children in Africa), to behave (it would hurt our mother if we embarrassed the family), and to follow the career path they thought was best for us (how proud they would be if we became a doctor or lawyer). So guilt became the reason we acted, not because we were going towards what we wanted, but because we did not want to be the reason for others’ unhappiness or disappointment.

How many times do we say ‘yes’ when we really mean ‘no’, only because we want to avoid feeling guilty about hurting someone’s feelings? How often do we take on an obligation because we want to avoid feeling guilty about being selfish and doing something that serves us? So often we say yes and then have double guilt. There is guilt from the person who asked and self guilt from our resentment at not meeting our needs. Guilt is a bothersome and annoying emotion that we can overcome when we remember that we hold the power of choice and action in our life.

Shame is an even more destructive emotion because it emanates from within us, from a core of unworthiness that defines how we perceive ourselves. This core feeling spreads to every area of our life, setting our energetic vibrations at such a low level that we feel undeserving at every turn. The person who shames us does so from their own core of shame and where guilt is often about manipulation, shame is about destruction. Our experience of being shamed leads to feelings of not being enough, good enough, right, or worthy. And we shame ourselves when we believe we have failed at something, not realizing that the shame is responsible for the failure.

As we are processing larger and larger volumes of energy now, what has been lurking at the bottom of the barrel is now coming up for our review. We have already processed the easier energies, now we are prepared for these, which are the foundation of all our self defeating, self sabotaging behavior. It does not matter how much guilt or shame we have, all of it is destructive and challenging.

Any time we feel taken advantage of, misused, abused or manipulated, guilt and shame are present in some form. If fear of success or failure plagues you, what guilt or shame do you have that is preventing you from realizing your true potential? How do we heal and release them? That is our key to freedom. Everywhere we are stuck is an area where we need to look for guilt or shame. And this is where we lose access to life’s blessings because they prevent us from being fully connected to ourselves, pursuing our dreams and believing that we deserve to live, love, have joy and success and create fulfillment.

When guilt and shame arise in your life, take a good look at where they came from, who is involved, what messages they have for you and then remind yourself that you are worthy, as a divine spark of Creator, of everything your heart desires and let guilt and shame flow out of your life, to be replaced with love for yourself, for your dreams, miracles and the joy and abundance that are your divine birthright.